First of all, I’m sorry. Things just got a little crazy this month. To make a long story short – I’ve gotta get ready to move across the country. Of course, not immediately, but sooner than I’d expect too. I’ve got roughly eight months to save up for the jump. That seems like a long time, but it’ll pass quickly. The problem naturally is money, because moving isn’t cheap. It cost me around $300 two years ago to move across town to where I am now – and that’s not counting the $2000 I put down for the new apartment.
So I’m saving money, or trying too. It’s tricky saving money with minimum wage, half the time I don’t have enough for food, but luckily my work provides me with free food on break. So it’s not completely terrible. I’m due for a raise, but it won’t be much, maybe not even a dollar. Regardless, I’m having some issues with my current living situation.
Though work is going well, well enough for me to be promoted at the very least, the company I work for has little prudence. To expand upon that, they are digging themselves a hole. Despite many of my workers and my comments about how certain practices are damaging sales and customer retention, our company refuses to change its practices. In the last year we’ve lost thousands of dollars because our branch boss is trying, ironically, to save money. It is only a matter of time before the University cancels our contract and we get laid off. I wish that wasn’t the case, but it really is – two other branches in our state have already lost contract for similar behaviors and our University just got a new President who has begun voicing some complaints. I live in a city, but employment is currently every hard to find. Even with seven years experience in a trained field I could not find work for months. I would rather not have that happen again.
So the kicker is I’m going to publish a few of my books much sooner than expected – I’ve always wanted to publish, so it’s not a complete surprise, but have been worried about my writing not being polished enough. As things are, I have nothing to lose in diving in early. It won’t make a lot, trust me, I know. But this move is important to me, and even if I make $2 that’s more in the savings account then I would’ve had without.
As of this minute, I am almost done with my first collection Moth-Like.. The cover of Moth-Like. is the picture above (or at least the idea for the cover, I haven’t gotten everything %100 set in stone just yet). Right now I’m formatting the eBook and getting the typography set. The manuscript is complete. All the poems and their order is set and ready, I’m just making it legible now. If you’ve been reading and following some of the poems I’ve posted these last… 3ish months a few of them will be appearing in Moth-Like.. Right now there are 62 poems in the collection, roughly half of those have appeared on social media, but not all of them here.
In fact, I never got around to transferring over the second year of Divine Poetry. I know there are some from the first year, but I don’t think they have any views? I posted them to appear in chronological order by their original post date, but that was before I had any followers – so if anyone wants to kill some time I’ve got about 20+ poems hidden in the archives.
Continuing on, Moth-Like. is the first of three collections. I have written 500+ poems since 2012, but my early poems need a lot of editing, and the next two collections draw heavily from those early poems because of their themes. As I would like my readers to have an enjoyable experience and not make them sit through years of cringe worthy work, I’m going to be taking a bit more time getting those out. I also plan to be writing and posting poems here which might slow me down some.
Hopefully, by the end of this month Moth-Like. will be on Amazon, for better or worse. It’s maybe going to be $6-8. I’d like to keep it cheap, but my favorite numbers are 4,6, 8 – so the kindle version is defiantly going to be $4 or less. Moth-Like. will be covering a lot of my more depressing and darker pieces, the quiet ones that is, as the collection is about healing from suicide and dealing with day to day depression. It will be broken into three sections: Cold Night, Lonely, and Bonfire. To give you guys an idea, “Bad Luck” and “Dreaming of Silence” will be in Cold Night. “Flaunting Trauma” and “Cold Lemonade” will be in Lonely. “The Artist I Know” and “What They Need” will be in Bonfire. The end of the collection, Bonfire, will be a slightly more uplifting section – so the entire thing won’t be a complete downer.
The second collection will be, oddly enough, love and romance themed – but not in the traditional sense, I suppose. “Falsely Beat“, “Sunsplit Busted Lip“, “All the Little Hurts“, and “Self-Love” will be in this collection. It is equally about the lack of romance and healthy forms of love as it is about development and finding of them. The title and sections are still to be decided, but I am leaning towards something flowery, like roses. It may be that each section is named by a genius of rose. That’s all I’ve got for now.
Thank you for reading all this. I hate that I promised to post only to back out and then drop all this out of no where. I’m excited, but also tired. I hope that this makes up for it, even if just a little. I want to give everyone something beautiful, though I admit, I have a strange sense of that word.